Sunday, November 13, 2005

Dream No. 3

I had another dream about Laurie last night--and not surprisingly it was different than the previous two.

We were at her house, specifically in the kitchen, doing what we always did--laughing. I don't remember what we talked about or anything, but here's the strange part: I didn't know she was dead. We interacted as we always did, but I was not conscious that I'd been grieving her death in real life.

That's very strange to me. During the first and second dreams I was aware of her suicide, and it affected how I acted towards her. This dream felt normal. Like the same type of dream I could have had about her if she was still alive.

I still really miss my friend.

4 Comments:

Anonymous fe said...

Awww Drew....I'm praying for you. I admire your strength and courage.

November 13, 2005 2:11 PM  
Blogger Anna P said...

Coffee and fried/cooked something sometime soon. Seriously.

November 13, 2005 10:43 PM  
Blogger Emily said...

Was it at all healing for you? I had a dream about Laurie in like May. She was alive and well and lit up the room. It helped me. I guess it was nice to escape from the reality of the situation for a moment. Even if only in a dream. You?

November 14, 2005 12:58 PM  
Blogger dbrown said...

Emily
It's definitely cool to be with her in a new context, but honestly whenever I wake up it just makes me sad all over again.

November 15, 2005 9:42 AM  

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